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The Enemy Who Creeps In
“Just put it down!” I felt the words escaping from my mouth and the damage was instantly done. My husband’s face fell and the room went quiet. In my anxiety in thinking my son was hurt and too much was going on in the busy room, my husband wanted my attention and I snapped at him. But more than that, I embarrassed him in front of all of our friends. I couldn’t make it better either. I walked away and began trying to rationalize my behavior. “What’s wrong with me? We never speak to each other like that, “ I thought. The truth was, we had begun speaking to each other like that. I had begun speaking to him like that. In the privacy of our home, I had begun to disrespect my husband. And the worst part-I justified my actions because he had hurt me. He didn’t even mean to hurt me, but I felt entitled to some kind of revenge. I allowed a debt system to creep into my marriage and the result was awful. But the enemy didn’t just creep in, I had welcomed him in and it took awhile for me to realize it before some damage was done. I was keeping a record of wrongs.
My husband had messed up. We were in a busy season of life and we were trudging through. I wanted love and attention and I felt entitled to these things. When I didn’t get them, I withheld my love for him and I also withheld respect. I told my husband how I felt and he apologized-sincerely apologized. I had said the words, “It’s ok” and “I forgive you, “ but I held onto the debt he owed me and I held onto the hurt it caused too. I communicated this to him in little ways. None of it was a conscious decision, but he knew. I brought up the mistakes often and had an “I’m going to go do whatever I want because he owes me” attitude.
But sin never stays neatly in one area. I had begun to disrespect my husband in our home and eventually I did it in front of our friends. I felt terrible. The guilt and shame made me regret my words and behavior towards him immediately. I apologized and he forgave me, but the shame wouldn’t let up.
The next day I took it to work with me. I could not shake the awful feeling of what I had done. It seemed like I was literally carrying this burden around and no matter how many times I sought forgiveness, I wasn’t in the clear. My husband assured me over and over again that we were fine. That he honestly forgave me, but the heavy guilt would not stop bothering me.
Finally, I cried out to God in prayer. “Why do I feel this way?!” The answer came swiftly and shocked me. Tears welled up in my eyes as I heard the words, “I’m letting you feel this way because you need to know how you make your husband feel when you don’t truly forgive him. This is how he feels when you punish him over and over again for the same mistake.” I needed to feel what my husband was feeling in order to have a truly empathetic experience and to know that what I was doing was an abomination to God. I repented; I turned from the sin I had welcomed into my home and the heavy coat of shame was lifted off my shoulders. Then I made true restitution with my husband. I apologized for holding debts against him.Remember that when God forgives us, we are truly forgiven. Acts 3:19 “Repent, then, and turn to God, so that your sins may be wiped out, that times of refreshing may come from the Lord…”
When we repent and turn to God, our sins are wiped out.
It is the accuser who reminds us of our shortcoming. It is the enemy who wants to lie to us and have us believe we are not in right standing with God. Isaiah 43: 25 states, “I, even I, am he who blots out your transgressions, for my own sake, and remembers your sins no more.” He remembers our sin no more! It is our job as believers to become more Christ like in all of our actions. This is why when I was constantly reminding my husband of his sins, it was an abomination to the Lord.
Sin also never stays neatly in one area, rather it spreads like the poison it is into other areas. I’m thankful my sin was finally exposed to the light. It was awful that I embarrassed the man I love, but it was at that point I had to acknowledge the enemy I had allowed into my marriage and deal with it accordingly.
It’s so simple! Guard your marriage! Don’t allow a debt system to creep in. Don’t welcome it in because of some entitlement mindset. Your spouse doesn’t owe you anything. The world doesn’t owe you anything. Forgive as Christ has forgiven you and be made right with God. It is through our interactions with each other that the world will know and see God. 1 Corinthians 13:5 “[Love] does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.”
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