FOR YEARS I STRUGGLED with a panic/anxiety disorder. At least that’s what the therapist called it. I had been in out of the ER multiple times, in fact more times than I can count and spent a lot of money visiting doctors seeking to determine what was wrong with me. It was a very rough time in my life. I wanted to die. I wanted to tuck myself away and never see anyone or do anything. Even going to the store was a struggle.
I had two small children, a husband working two jobs, and a full time church that needed me. I felt hopeless UNTIL the Lord showed me the true nature of my panic. Yes, I had childhood trauma. Yes, I had dysfunction in my past. Yes, I had rejection and abandonment fears. However, God gave me a few verses of Scripture that He spoke directly into me heart. It is the following:
“O Lord, you will ordain peace for us, for you have indeed done for us all our works. O Lord our God, other lords (masters) besides you have ruled over us, but your name alone we bring to remembrance. They are dead, they will not live; they are shades, they will not arise; to that end you have visited them with destruction and wiped out all remembrance of them.”
Isaiah 26:12-14 ESV
Isaiah 26 is the language of the church after having been delivered by the Lord Himself. It began at an altar on a Sunday night 18+ years ago. The Spirit began to show me that I was under the lordship of these demonic spirits and feelings: fear, anxiety and panic. They were my lords and masters. Anything that you allow to control you and have authority over you is your lord. It could be a sin, a feeling, a past trauma, etc.
If it is dictating your actions, it is your master. I was allowing these things to master me. Another way of saying this is, I was a slave to these things. That night at the altar the Spirit spoke the above verse to me. Jesus had (past tense) visited these demonic things, punished and destroyed them, but now the battle for them to regain their territory was in full swing. I had to rise up and battle these masters over my body these demonic emotions and physical manifestations and come against them in Jesus name. I resolved to believe His Word.
Read Chronicles. Every king that sought the Lord for help was victorious in battle. But every king that went to another nation and king for help, lost the battle. “At that time Hanani the seer came to Asa king of Judah and said to him, “Because you relied on the king of Syria, and did not rely on the Lord your God, the army of the king of Syria has escaped you. Were not the Ethiopians and the Libyans a huge army with very many chariots and horsemen? Yet because you relied on the Lord, he gave them into your hand. For the eyes of the Lord run to and fro throughout the whole earth, to give strong support to those whose heart is blameless toward him. You have done foolishly in this, for from now on you will have wars.” 2 Chron 16:7-9
This begs the question: what lords and masters are you allowing to rule you? Lord of your feelings? Lord of depression? Lord of anxiety? Lord of fear? Lord of sickness and torment? Lord of your past? Lord of guilt and shame? Have you allowed Covid to become your new lord? Hear the words of the Holy Spirit today! The Lord says, “I have visited your masters and destroyed them and have made all their memory to perish!” But do your believe it? Will you receive it?
Will you rise up to battle your old masters in the name of Jesus? Or will you run to others for help, that are no true help? He has ordained PEACE for His people. You can remain in peace of mind, peace of heart, peace in your body. It’s just whether or not you will receive His words by faith and live in them. I have had the victory over these things for 15+ years. Do they try to return? Yes, from time to time. But now I recognize their influence and reject it immediately. I am resolved to remain in His peace.
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