I AM NOT STRONG. I am loyal. I have a lot of people ask me, “How do you do it? You are so strong!” I have overcome so much in my life: a past of drugs and immorality, abuse, abandonment, depression, anxiety, a panic disorder, physical infirmities, the day to day fleshly battles and more.
I am strong…to a point. You haven’t seen me when I’ve been rolled up in a fetal position crying out in pain and crushing despair. The times I’ve declared, “I’m done!” and I could not find the strength in myself to go on. Perhaps you yourself have been there? But if my testimony draws you to me, I am doing it wrong. I am not strong. I am loyal and determined. I am resolute to follow Him outside the camp. I am unwavering in my devotion to Him, to never quit and never give up. I may fail and I may fall, but I will not be a failure because He is the strength of my life.
I can do nothing without Him and I can do all things through Him. His strength is made perfect in my weakness. You may admire my determination; but make no mistake, His blood gives me life. His sacrifice changes my mind and my heart. His Spirit gives me power and I draw from His strength; “In your strength I can crush an army; with my God I can scale any wall.” 2 Samuel 22:30
It is His voice I hear first thing in the morning, “Rise up!” And the last words I utter before I drift off into sleep, “I love You Lord Jesus.” I cannot repay Him, but I can be loyal. You will see my strength fail, but you will never see me be unfaithful. “Unto You, O my Strength, I will sing praises; for God is my Defense, my Fortress, and High Tower, the God Who shows me mercy and steadfast love.” Psalm 59:17 AMPC#runyourrace
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