AND WHEN HE THOUGHT about it. When he reflected on the thoughts and intents of his heart, he wept. “A second time the rooster crowed. Then Peter called to mind the word that Jesus had said to him, “Before the rooster crows twice, you will deny Me three times.” And when he thought about it, he wept.” Mark 14:72
What have I done!? Not as much of a question but an exclamation of deep sorrow and regret for a choice you can never get back. Peter was not yet ready, he still lacked courage. The Lord had read Peter’s heart, knew what was in him and what was still lacking. He knew what words Peter would speak before they even crossed his lips. Peter denied Jesus. He was not yet ready for the trial.
Yes, one day he would be ready but at this moment he thought about his actions and grieved his wrong choice. Boy, have I been there. Maybe not to this extent, but I have remained silent when I should have spoken up. I have passed someone by when I was supposed to go to them. I have kept back when I was supposed to give. All this and more, even after I have been baptized with the Holy Spirit.
If I really searched my heart I’d see that I too lacked courage. I wanted people to like me more than I wanted to honor God. I cared more about pleasing others than pleasing my Lord. God forgive me! The pain of displeasing Him far out weighs the praises of another. Not any more. I’ve settled it in my heart. His glory above anyone. His honor above all else.
There will be more trials like Peter’s in your life. What’s lacking in your heart? Peter proclaimed he would never deny Jesus, yet he did. He thought he knew his heart, but he deceived himself. The pain of regret is heavy. There are moments you can never get back. There are times and seasons that require a right and God-honoring choice. Disobedience can cost you a little or it can cost you everything. You don’t get to decide the time of your trial.
“Blessed is the man who endures temptation; for when he has been approved, he will receive the crown of life which the Lord has promised to those who love Him.” James 1:12
Will you be ready? Settle it now and root out any and all fear. Get rid of your need for approval. Don’t even let disobedience cross your mind. The trial is coming. What will you say to the mockers?
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