I love coffee. I love the smell of it. I love the taste of it. I love the feeling of the warm cup in my hand whether it is hot day or cold rainy day. I love it plain or with creamer in it. I REALLY love coffee.
A little over a month ago, I experienced some health issues that earned me a couple of nights stay in the hospital and subsequently resulted in me working with a few different specialists to try to find the root cause. One specialist requested I do an elimination diet, which means removing any potential trigger foods and slowly adding things back in to see how my body responds. On that list is, of course, coffee, and she set my expectation that it would be one of the last things added back in and it would be at very least 2 months before we reached that point.
Knowing that the health issue I was experiencing could have potentially serious consequences if it happened again, I walked in obedience, gave up my coffee, and determined I would become a tea drinker instead. Over the last 3 weeks, I have greatly enjoyed trying out new teas. I like how my body feels now in the morning, no longer dependent on caffeine to jump start my day.
A few days ago, though, as I sat in my chair in the living room, my gaze settled on the stand in my kitchen where we keep the coffee pods for our Keurig. In the stand were pods of the peppermint coffee my husband had sweetly bought me just a couple of days before the no coffee order came. With the rainy coldness around, peppermint coffee sounded pretty amazing, and I thought about mocha flavoring we had that I just knew would taste amazing in it. It had been 3 weeks and so far my body was doing fine with the things I had added back in so far. There was, of course, potential I wouldn’t even react to the coffee at all.
I allowed my mind to continue to focus on it until I followed through with action, making the peppermint coffee. It smelled SO GOOD! I then added the mocha creamer. It now smelled even better. I tasted it. AMAZING!! Just like I had thought. I thoroughly enjoyed that coffee. And I felt great afterward…for a little bit.
Then the pain started in my stomach and I began to feel sick. It didn’t send me to the hospital, but there were definite unpleasant consequences. Coffee isn’t something that is bad for everyone. Many people drink it and have no reaction. This experience, though, has shown me that it isn’t good for me, at least not right now and potentially may never be something I get to have back without unpleasant consequences.
Walking through this reminds me of my relationship with God and how there are things in my life He has called me to leave behind. They are things that might not be stumbling blocks for everyone, but for one reason or another, He has told me they are not for me. They include certain tv shows, some types of music, some types of environments, parts of social media just to name a few.
The specialist I was working with knew the things that are the highest triggers for the issues I was having. I should have listened and followed her recommendation and her process. How much more does my own Creator know me and the inner workings of my heart, knowing those things that are harmful to me. He knows that those things He has asked me to stay away from are triggers in my life that, left unchecked, can have very unpleasant consequences, potentially even pulling me away from Him. In all His love and grace, He calls me away from them, not as punishment or to deprive me, but to protect me and to give me a life that is so much more full without those things in it if I would just trust in Him and walk in obedience.
Are there things in your life currently that you have felt the Spirit prompting you to get rid of in your life, to stay away from, even just for a season? Your Creator knows every part of you. He formed you. He knows your struggles. He knows all your ways. He knows your past. He holds your future. Trust Him and let those things go from your life. Let Him show you how much fuller your life can be when you walk in His ways.
Psalm 139: 1-6
O Lord, You have searched me and known me.
You know my sitting down and my rising up;
You understand my thought afar off.
You ]comprehend my path and my lying down,
And are acquainted with all my ways.
For there is not a word on my tongue,
But behold, O Lord, You know it altogether.
You have hedged me behind and before,
And laid Your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me;
It is high, I cannot attain it.
Search me, O God, and know my heart!
Try me and know my thoughts!
And see if there be any grievous way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting!